Posted in Blog, Mental Health

My Twitter Ban


Earlier in the month I called Helen Grant a cunt on Twitter and today my account was suspended for twelve hours. Twitter told me that if I deleted the tweet, I’d be able to use my account again straightaway, but I refused to delete it. The reason why I said what I said, is because she’s a terf, a racist and a bully, and I stand by what I said. Furthermore, Black women are called cunts on Twitter all the time – just because Helen Grant is a an MP with a blue tick by her name, Twitter are protecting her, while we are left to rot in the abuse we face from racist right-wingers every single day. I know this, because I live it and I live it with my Black sisters every single day. Now however, instead of reporting the abuse directly to Twitter support, we just block the abusers because that’s more effective.

This is the tweet I sent:


This is the reason why I sent the tweet: Grant instigated a hateful campaign against Bergdorf, following her appointment as Labour’s LGBTQ+ advisor. Grant did this because Bergdorf is an intelligent, confident, Black, Transgender woman and as a Conservative MP, Grant decided to not only write to Dawn Butler, the Labour MP who had appointed Bergdorf, demanding that she be removed from her position, but she also took to the media to cast a tornado of racist and transphobic abuse which created a backlash on social media for Bergdorf, leaving her no choice but forcing her to step down from her position.

When I sent that tweet, I was standing in the street and I was sobbing. I’m not a hateful person, however when I see something wrong I speak with conviction and I’m not afraid to speak.

I myself, was aggressively forced out of my job and I know exactly how it feels to be ganged up against. And I also know exactly how it feels to not have anybody speak up on your behalf. When you’re a Black woman, people scatter to the shadows – it creates a psychological isolation like no other, which is why I knew that no matter the consequences for myself and my public image, I had to speak up for this injustice, and I’ll gladly do it again.

There is also a category of violence as Black women that we suffer called misogynoir – the intersection of racism, anti-Blackness, and misogyny that Black women experience however as a trans woman, Bergdorf falls into the another intersection of violence: Transmisogynoir. 

I first came across misogynoir when I stumbled upon Moya Bailey.

“I needed a word to describe the particular f***ery Black women face in popular culture.” 

Bailey first used the term in an essay titled, ‘They Aren’t Talking About Me’ for the Crunk Feminist Collective, which she coined in reaction to violence against Black women – particularly that she was witnessing in the streets, as well as on social media juxtaposed with the rejection of our culture by white people.

Transmisogynoir is a term I’ve only recently come across, and a violence that of course, only Transgender women of colour will face, such as Bergdorf. Henceforth, the negative impacts of her transphobic oppression is heightened because her oppressors are white supremacists, which people constantly forget, and which is why I had to speak up.

I have to admit though, twelve hours without Twitter has been hell LOL… I’ve got the shakes and everything LOL.


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“I’m Half Dutch and White, Hear My Tears”… URGH [We DO NOT Love Holland, Pt2]

My previous post on Amsterdam was quite a hit! Even with Lovers Canal! (Yes they read it LOL.) I’ve been in contact with them regarding my complaint. I’ve also had messages from many people of colour regarding their negative experiences while in Amsterdam. They’ve all had very similar experiences, therefore they have found my post not only interesting to read in that times have not moved on culturally and intersectionally, but also they also found it therapeutic to share the experience.

And then I received this on my facebook page:

I’m half Dutch and I completely disagree with what your saying. Your making assumptions on a whole nation from one experience, and personal this really offends me as I’m proud of my heritage. You are entitled to your opinion but maybe you should think a little bit more before you write such damaging words as your judging the majority on the minority group you have unfortunately had to deal with, which is awful and I’m sorry you went through that.

Ok first of all:

This girl is best friends of somebody I used to be friends with and she grew up in South-East London… NOT Holland but London, and she still lives in SE London therefore, she doesn’t know Holland or the culture. She knows LONDON.

Second of all:
YOU’RE not YOUR you dumb bitch. If you’re going to send me a message, check your grammar. There are more, but this one offends me the most.

She also clearly doesn’t know how to read, because I didn’t judge my experience on one experience. I lived there unlike you, you dumb bitch.

Third of all:

Proud of your “Dutch Heritage”

So you didn’t read the piece then did you, you dumb bitch, because that would make you a massive racist!

So you’re supposed to be an adult, who cannot spell and you’ve also confirmed everything I believed about the Dutch!

And here’s my final question… what was your goal, you bum?

What was your goal in telling a highly educated Black, disabled woman and her highly educated Transgender girlfriend, who were both subjected to SO MUCH harassment and witnessed SO much discrimination against their minority groups that they’ve been put off going back to that country, about your white feelings and your white tears?

That you haven’t lived in, but the highly educated Black woman has, just remind you LOL

Thank you and good night!