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No Issue

You say that it’s not relatable,

That it’s no longer an issue,

Just because you don’t see it.

You write songs about love,

About the boy who doesn’t look at you during math,

While we write songs about being beaten in the streets,

About not getting that big promotion we’ve been working for

Because you got it instead,

You write about wizards, and a mid-life crisis;

We’re still writing about the years of poverty, lack of schooling,

In fact the poor schooling because we’re not good enough for your best teaching.

You give us detentions for our haircuts,

A stop and search for our attire.

I ask a question –

You call it an attitude problem.


But you tell me to my face that there’s no issue,

That it’s all in my mind – just a chip on my shoulder,

And I’m constantly apologising for sins not even my own.

But it’s not something you’ll ever understand.


Which is why it’s no longer an issue,

Because it never was for you.


My body remains on the sidelines watching, while my mind roams around the room, taking in the world around her. I am a wallflower. There could be two reasons for this: It could be due to me being an introvert or just that I am a Cancerian! I’m Cece Alexandra and I am so honoured that you’ve been led to delve into my thoughts here in this blog! I would describe myself as a Wallflower which is why I use words to express my deepest – and sometimes darkest - thoughts. Words have always been my strongest method of expressing myself. Growing up I always wanted to be a writer, however life and circumstances chipped away at my confidence until there was nothing left. Without words, I could no longer express myself. I am also Epileptic. Since being diagnosed, I have realised that my deepest fear is the day I am finally on my deathbed, haunted by the overwhelming regret that I never achieved my God-given potential. This realisation forced me to take a step of faith and put myself out there. Yes it makes me vulnerable, however within the process I not only want to be an inspiration to myself; I want to be an inspiration to other women – to be whatever you want to be. Embrace the fear and doubt and utilise that as the fuel you need to push through! Life is for living to the fullest. Life is for loving, for living true to yourself and to the people around you. Life however, can also be crippling, dark and overwhelming. But you are not alone. This thought alone is what will help you get up from the ground.

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