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Project: Sister

Today is National Sibling Day.


Just another reminder that I no longer have one…..

Did you know that the “Bumble” app has an option to search for a BFF????

Well, I’ve decided to use the app to find a new sister. I’m not ashamed to admit that two years later there is still a hole in my life. I’ve also lost a lot of close friends because of my epilepsy: life moves on, however my inconsistent health keeps me in the slow lane; my friends become closer to each other while I remain distant and as much as I love my boyfriend, I miss having girl time.

I also miss having a sister. 

I’m also not ashamed to admit that I find it incredibly upsetting that I haven’t been able to make friends at work. Having worked within my department for six months, the only impression I’ve made is one of a sick black girl full of attitude. I’m like the Kanye West of the team:

Kanye West

(except with a disability……).
So I’ve decided to try out Bumble. I did initially try it out for dating before meeting my boyfriend and just like my friends found it an EPIC FAIL – I’m hoping that Project: Sister will be more successful…


I’ve already matched up with two BFFs, which means two potential new sisters LOL. I’ll keep y’all posted of course! 



My body remains on the sidelines watching, while my mind roams around the room, taking in the world around her. I am a wallflower. There could be two reasons for this: It could be due to me being an introvert or just that I am a Cancerian! I’m Cece Alexandra and I am so honoured that you’ve been led to delve into my thoughts here in this blog! I would describe myself as a Wallflower which is why I use words to express my deepest – and sometimes darkest - thoughts. Words have always been my strongest method of expressing myself. Growing up I always wanted to be a writer, however life and circumstances chipped away at my confidence until there was nothing left. Without words, I could no longer express myself. I am also Epileptic. Since being diagnosed, I have realised that my deepest fear is the day I am finally on my deathbed, haunted by the overwhelming regret that I never achieved my God-given potential. This realisation forced me to take a step of faith and put myself out there. Yes it makes me vulnerable, however within the process I not only want to be an inspiration to myself; I want to be an inspiration to other women – to be whatever you want to be. Embrace the fear and doubt and utilise that as the fuel you need to push through! Life is for living to the fullest. Life is for loving, for living true to yourself and to the people around you. Life however, can also be crippling, dark and overwhelming. But you are not alone. This thought alone is what will help you get up from the ground.

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