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Reasons to be Cheerful

Today I’m on strike!

I’m exhausted and therefore refusing to do any work! However, instead of moping around, I’ve decided to reflect on what I’m thankful for.

This week is going to be a BIG one for me at work, which is why I’ve been working so incredibly hard, but I’m thankful for my career. It’s tough being ill; I have to work harder than everybody else. However it’ll all be worth it in the end.

On the subject of Epilepsy, I’m thankful that i DON’T have photosensitive Epilepsy. My boyfriend and I love going to gigs; I love music and especially love live music and thankfully at times strobe lights can leave me with w migraine if their excessively flashy like this:


IMG_20170222_220749S U R V I V E @ the Village Underground


The Statue Thieves @ Remon Coffee House


The Naked and The Famous @ The Kentish Forum

That gig was particularly awesome as I first heard of that band a few months before I first got sick. Got times.

Ok… What else am I thankful for…..


For the friends who I rarely get to see anymore but are always on WhatsApp  or hold me in their thoughts πŸ‘

My sisters and lil mister πŸ’‹ without whom I would be nothing.

And then there’s the boyf obvs….. πŸ’‹πŸ’‹πŸ’‹πŸ’‹

I don’t talk much about living with somebody actually!

So it’s been about a month now and  it’s fucking hard! I’m not the easiest person to live with: I work a lot, I’m sick all the time, I can go from being silly and sarcastic to crying and sarcastic, or just silent. Lol. But then he’s tough too: he rarely cleans up after himself, I don’t think he knows what a toilet roll holder is, and when we argue there’s nowhere to escape to. On the other hand, I’m living with my bestie, who cooks a mean meal after I’ve worked for twelve hours, and makes me laugh so hard I fall off the furniture more often than I sit on it. He’s also there for me when I need to a cheerleader because life is kicking me down yet again.

Anyway…. Those are my things to be thankful for!



My body remains on the sidelines watching, while my mind roams around the room, taking in the world around her. I am a wallflower. There could be two reasons for this: It could be due to me being an introvert or just that I am a Cancerian! I’m Cece Alexandra and I am so honoured that you’ve been led to delve into my thoughts here in this blog! I would describe myself as a Wallflower which is why I use words to express my deepest – and sometimes darkest - thoughts. Words have always been my strongest method of expressing myself. Growing up I always wanted to be a writer, however life and circumstances chipped away at my confidence until there was nothing left. Without words, I could no longer express myself. I am also Epileptic. Since being diagnosed, I have realised that my deepest fear is the day I am finally on my deathbed, haunted by the overwhelming regret that I never achieved my God-given potential. This realisation forced me to take a step of faith and put myself out there. Yes it makes me vulnerable, however within the process I not only want to be an inspiration to myself; I want to be an inspiration to other women – to be whatever you want to be. Embrace the fear and doubt and utilise that as the fuel you need to push through! Life is for living to the fullest. Life is for loving, for living true to yourself and to the people around you. Life however, can also be crippling, dark and overwhelming. But you are not alone. This thought alone is what will help you get up from the ground.

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