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Mean

This week has been one of highs and lows.

 

Today I write to you from the bathroom at work, as I cry, wondering how the people here can be so mean.

And yes I am aware that calling people “mean” makes me sound like a five-year-old however this is the only suitable adjective to describe people who can make you feel so low about yourself, that you feel sick.

Having a weakness makes you weak and people will treat you however they want to.

If you let them.

Lately I’ve been wanting to quit my job because I was tired of being the renegade and the voice of the minority. But I always forget myself in this.

What about me?

Shouldn’t I stand up for myself?

Don’t I deserve a hero?

Don’t I deserve to finally have somebody speak up for me?

Aren’t I tired of waiting around for people to do it for me? Of course I am.

Unfortunately as an invisible disability, it is extremely difficult to prove discrimination against a person like me.

Author:

I’m Cece Alexandra and I have Epilepsy. Since being diagnosed, my life has changed significantly. After studying and teaching Humanities and Literature for all of my adult life, I was bullied and lost my job a month before qualifying to become an English Teacher. Once you fail the Teacher Training course in England, you cannot ever retrain; I then became too sick to work because of my Epilepsy. I am now currently studying an MSc in Mental Health Psychology with the University of Liverpool. My disability provokes me into raising awareness for invisible disabilities, which I also actively partake in with Epilepsy Action. Part of that awareness is to help fight against invisible disability discrimination - I believe that this behaviour is not cognitively unconscious; modern society is actively partaking in a hierarchy of disabilities and I believe that there is not enough psychological research to prove this. I am also clinically interested in Cultural Psychology - particularly Collectivist Culture, and wish to pursue this further in my academic career.

One thought on “Mean

  1. It looks like I’m going for a comment on every post. Sorry! There’s just a lot to catch up on.

    Now the meat and potatoes. This makes me mad! Just like color blind racism- invisible disability discrimination is a bitch! We need to work out a way to counter both of those things because you as a person with an invis dis and black people in general are getting ravaged by those tactics!

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