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Zonegran: Take Two


Tonight begins my new quest to find seizure-free territory as I increase the dose of my Zonegran, so I’m now on 100mg a day.

Yesterday I had three seizures, one after the other.

I had to cancel plans to see my bff, who I haven’t seen since before Christmas, and spent the rest of the day in bed.

I know the trigger this time for definite… On Thursday I forgot to take my medication and went all day without ANYTHING in my system. Unfortunately Thursday was also an exhaustingly long day at work, therefore I didn’t get home until after 8pm, meaning that I’d gone 24 hours without any medication. I cried myself to sleep on Saturday because I only had myself to blame for being so careless. In the three years since I’ve been on medication, I’ve only ever forgotten to take my meds to work twice (including Thursday)…

… So I shouldn’t be too hard on myself…

… By the way, not ALL of those pills in the picture are AEDs! Some are also vitamins. I’ve been putting vitamins into my pill boxes so that I remember to take them everyday, and I’m not sure if it’s that, or the fact that I’ve reduced the Keppra, but lately I haven’t been feeling like a zombie! In fact, very much NOT like a zombie.

Zonegran could still be “The One” πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œ



My body remains on the sidelines watching, while my mind roams around the room, taking in the world around her. I am a wallflower. There could be two reasons for this: It could be due to me being an introvert or just that I am a Cancerian! I’m Cece Alexandra and I am so honoured that you’ve been led to delve into my thoughts here in this blog! I would describe myself as a Wallflower which is why I use words to express my deepest – and sometimes darkest - thoughts. Words have always been my strongest method of expressing myself. Growing up I always wanted to be a writer, however life and circumstances chipped away at my confidence until there was nothing left. Without words, I could no longer express myself. I am also Epileptic. Since being diagnosed, I have realised that my deepest fear is the day I am finally on my deathbed, haunted by the overwhelming regret that I never achieved my God-given potential. This realisation forced me to take a step of faith and put myself out there. Yes it makes me vulnerable, however within the process I not only want to be an inspiration to myself; I want to be an inspiration to other women – to be whatever you want to be. Embrace the fear and doubt and utilise that as the fuel you need to push through! Life is for living to the fullest. Life is for loving, for living true to yourself and to the people around you. Life however, can also be crippling, dark and overwhelming. But you are not alone. This thought alone is what will help you get up from the ground.

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