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No Apologies Necessary

Writing Your Book

Selfish

Nobody will ever love you

You’ll never be good enough

I had a dream that you were skinnier. You should exercise more

Why don’t you dress like a girl?

It’s all about you you you

I don’t want you in my house anymore and I want nothing to do with you

All of these words full of poison, hatred, jealousy, malice and darkness have all been spoken over me by somebody who used to be very close to me.

For a long time they festered within me – they start off through the ears and journey their way into your mind, body and soul, destroying you bit by bit.

They tell you who you are and who you’ve always been. You become sorry for the being the person everybody hates so much.

But how long will I let these lies manifest themselves? How long will I give them permission to hold me down?

There comes a time when you have to accept that you will never change people’s opinions about you. However, that does not give authority to that opinion to become your own.

You know who you are….

Selfless

Loved

Beautiful

Always welcome in the arms and home of the people who matter

You are YOU and you should never have to apologise for that

So it’s time to close the book on the poisonous people and begin writing your own story.

No apologies necessary. 

Author:

I’m Cece Alexandra and I have Epilepsy. Since being diagnosed, my life has changed significantly. After studying and teaching Humanities and Literature for all of my adult life, I was bullied and lost my job a month before qualifying to become an English Teacher. Once you fail the Teacher Training course in England, you cannot ever retrain; I then became too sick to work because of my Epilepsy. I am now currently studying an MSc in Mental Health Psychology with the University of Liverpool. My disability provokes me into raising awareness for invisible disabilities, which I also actively partake in with Epilepsy Action. Part of that awareness is to help fight against invisible disability discrimination - I believe that this behaviour is not cognitively unconscious; modern society is actively partaking in a hierarchy of disabilities and I believe that there is not enough psychological research to prove this. I am also clinically interested in Cultural Psychology - particularly Collectivist Culture, and wish to pursue this further in my academic career.

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