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No Apologies Necessary

Writing Your Book

Selfish

Nobody will ever love you

You’ll never be good enough

I had a dream that you were skinnier. You should exercise more

Why don’t you dress like a girl?

It’s all about you you you

I don’t want you in my house anymore and I want nothing to do with you

All of these words full of poison, hatred, jealousy, malice and darkness have all been spoken over me by somebody who used to be very close to me.

For a long time they festered within me – they start off through the ears and journey their way into your mind, body and soul, destroying you bit by bit.

They tell you who you are and who you’ve always been. You become sorry for the being the person everybody hates so much.

But how long will I let these lies manifest themselves? How long will I give them permission to hold me down?

There comes a time when you have to accept that you will never change people’s opinions about you. However, that does not give authority to that opinion to become your own.

You know who you are….

Selfless

Loved

Beautiful

Always welcome in the arms and home of the people who matter

You are YOU and you should never have to apologise for that

So it’s time to close the book on the poisonous people and begin writing your own story.

No apologies necessary. 

Author:

My body remains on the sidelines watching, while my mind roams around the room, taking in the world around her. I am a wallflower. There could be two reasons for this: It could be due to me being an introvert or just that I am a Cancerian! I’m Cece Alexandra and I am so honoured that you’ve been led to delve into my thoughts here in this blog! I would describe myself as a Wallflower which is why I use words to express my deepest – and sometimes darkest - thoughts. Words have always been my strongest method of expressing myself. Growing up I always wanted to be a writer, however life and circumstances chipped away at my confidence until there was nothing left. Without words, I could no longer express myself. I am also Epileptic. Since being diagnosed, I have realised that my deepest fear is the day I am finally on my deathbed, haunted by the overwhelming regret that I never achieved my God-given potential. This realisation forced me to take a step of faith and put myself out there. Yes it makes me vulnerable, however within the process I not only want to be an inspiration to myself; I want to be an inspiration to other women – to be whatever you want to be. Embrace the fear and doubt and utilise that as the fuel you need to push through! Life is for living to the fullest. Life is for loving, for living true to yourself and to the people around you. Life however, can also be crippling, dark and overwhelming. But you are not alone. This thought alone is what will help you get up from the ground.

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