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Losing my family

Losing my identity?

Losing my grip on reality

Nobody has answers

No friend nor pastor

To help end this faster

Where to turn?

This hole they’ve left burns

As the anger and paranoia spurns

And I fall to my knees

Sobbing my pleas

To the one who hears and sees

Praying for a way

To make it through the day

To wake up come what may

What the future holds

Only He knows

What else life throws

His hand reaches out

Diminishing my doubt

And I know I can’t do without

His unfailing love

My friend from above

Always to behold and love

And alas! I feel a calm

Feel safe and warm

And feel my sanity reform

Then He lifts me tall

I no longer feel small

Because He is my everything and all


My body remains on the sidelines watching, while my mind roams around the room, taking in the world around her. I am a wallflower. There could be two reasons for this: It could be due to me being an introvert or just that I am a Cancerian! I’m Cece Alexandra and I am so honoured that you’ve been led to delve into my thoughts here in this blog! I would describe myself as a Wallflower which is why I use words to express my deepest – and sometimes darkest - thoughts. Words have always been my strongest method of expressing myself. Growing up I always wanted to be a writer, however life and circumstances chipped away at my confidence until there was nothing left. Without words, I could no longer express myself. I am also Epileptic. Since being diagnosed, I have realised that my deepest fear is the day I am finally on my deathbed, haunted by the overwhelming regret that I never achieved my God-given potential. This realisation forced me to take a step of faith and put myself out there. Yes it makes me vulnerable, however within the process I not only want to be an inspiration to myself; I want to be an inspiration to other women – to be whatever you want to be. Embrace the fear and doubt and utilise that as the fuel you need to push through! Life is for living to the fullest. Life is for loving, for living true to yourself and to the people around you. Life however, can also be crippling, dark and overwhelming. But you are not alone. This thought alone is what will help you get up from the ground.

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